anti-[everything]

I haven't been getting much sleep lately. I have too many projects right now and despite my long days and sleepless nights, nothing seems to be getting done. My office is damn disaster, thought that really isn't anything new. I have piles of books, papers, notes and other nonsense almost everywhere I look. I need to rummage through it all every day or so to remind myself what's in the piles I'm neglecting. It's frightening.

I'm not sure the coffee even does anything any more. It keeps the headaches away, I guess.

I'm at home most all of the time now. That means I don't need to shower regularly or get too dressed. I can wear the same shit everyday. Not having to socialize every day is nice. I don't really want co-workers and colleagues to talk to on a regular basis. At the same time, I really don't have any reason to leave the house. Ever. That may lead to insanity.

It's times like these when I want to smoke, especially late at night or early in the morning. Sometimes I think I'd probably push a 90-year-old, quadriplegic, epileptic midget down a flight a stairs if made a pack of smokes and a light would materialize in my hands. But, I don't smoke anymore so there's no use complaining about it.

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Seriously. How much effort does it take to make your damn pdf an actual form that I can fill out in Acrobat or Preview? I've done it before. It isn't difficult. Why the fuck would you even bother posting a pdf that I have to print out and fill out by hand? Do they hate me? What fucking year is this? Why don't I just telegram my entries?

It's as if someone is trying to punish me for having sloppy, lazy penmanship...repeatedy.

Yes. This is what passes for a post around here.

I have other shit to do right now.

I guess I failed my saving throws versus sad and nostalgia:

MILWAUKEE, Wis. (AP) -- A sad day for fans of role-playing games: The man who co-created Dungeons & Dragons is dead.

Gary Gygax died Tuesday morning at his home in Lake Geneva, Wis. His wife Gail says the 69-year-old had been suffering from health problems for several years. (AP News)

Also: First announcement¹ | Gary Gygax, 1938-2008: Rest in Peace, Dungeon Master

I'll admit it. I was a huge D&D nerd for a long time. My friends and I would play RPGs, mostly D&D, for hours any chance we could get. Nothing could beat a great DIY adventure or campaign one of your friends cooked up. Anything could happen. None of the computer games or online RPGs I've ever played could match the fun of a good D&D session with friends.

Some of our parents thought we were worshipping Satan, of course. I did grow up in the Deep South after all. Some of the guys couldn't keep books at their house because their folks would through them away if they found them. My parents didn't forbid it but they didn't really encourage it.

The only time I ever shoplifted anything was a Dungeon Master's Guide. It was from a bookstore in the mall.

I haven't played since ca 1993 or 1994, I guess. I'm not even sure where my books are. I think one of the people I used to game with still has them. I know my dice are around here somewhere. I don't know anyone that still plays, and I doubt I could make time for it anymore if I did.

I still miss that game.

I've never met Gary Gygax, but he helped make that fun possible.